Consideration about life?

I think I don't have time to describe all my life, so I'll try to briefly say what's going on and what happened just some minutes ago..I came back from work and I decided to do a nap just to recharge my battery...I dreamed...There was one of my friend..he just now I'm America doing is phd..he's a genius and we where talking and he seems like to me to got some special power and I felt during the dream anxious...after I wake up and now I writing here feeling this strange think...to be honest I didn't accomplish anything with my life...I'll be 27 in few months, I tried so many thinks but I've got as well many problem with anxiety, depression, bulimia, anorexia, and I've been recovered for a short time in the past...2 years ago I moved in UK alone dropping out of college per the second time to work improve my English (i still got a tons of problem despite the time that I've been here) working in different restaurants and ending up as a customer Representative for a big American company..this friend for me represent the success and is not just a question of money...it's because for what he do (i think well be one of the next astronauts)..I feel so pathetic...what I can't understand is why I procrastinate all my life and why now is such painful..I've got a lots of friends and there are ordinary people but everyone is trying to pursue a goal, but not me...and now I feel that is to late to do something of great with my life cause I'm a fu''k dumb without hope and future...the best thing is: there are a lot of people with Handicaps, people who cannot walk, people with serious problem in life...my family has been always supportive and maybe to much because just now realize that because if their presence (i'm an only child) has been possible for me to do every things that I wanted as don't take care about my previous job or study..maybe i can find an 'excuse' for the early part of my 20 cause of my eating problem, but now are like 4 years that I still can't figure out what do with my myself...another thing...anyone who seem to feel anxious about technology???...I use to work in the sector for a while giving up because I felt not able..anxiety...this is my problem...I can't overcome difficulties and I end up every time doing simple labor jobs..like now...why I didn't finish for the second time my degree in economy??? Should I?...but why just now I'll pay, not to end my studied but to change again the subject and study engineering (to be honest I like computer but in the past, as my high school I piked up for 5 years a commercial school, ending with small cles of IT (a really old course with pascal and cobol and trying the first time accountancy at university) Just now reading again what i write I feel a lots of regrets..the true is that at school when I was young I had never been such constant, studying before an exams and procrastinating,...but now I feel that I've been doing that all my life and there is such a heavy stone on my chest that I can't breath....I should not say that...but I think that I'm a loser and failed...sorry to have been such long...