Help me please some1?

ok well there is this kid i really like in my high school and he really like me i know this bc he told me and we liked eachother since i was nine last years old ( he lives around th block from me) right know iam 15 and he is 17. last year i was a lil freshy and he ped by my clrooms and look in the roms for me everyday (i didnt mind cause he soo god damm hot ) we only talked about 3 dayss. Aand this school year he knows a couple of my ccles but he dont p by them and when i see him in the hall ways he barely looks at me andd i knoow he still likes me and all but i dont know what to do i tried to stop likin him but he dosent work =( and everyday i think about this is depresses me and i get mad so than i smoke sniff and drink he only knows i smoke cause he saw me . i dont know what to do and i really wanna talk to him but im afriad to tlak to him cause i think he should (n i wouldnt go up to talk to him and please dont say i should)