I recently had to get rid of my 5 kittens that my cat gave birth to and i can't stop thinking about them..?

does anyone got stories that can relate to this one or anything to make me feel happy and perky insteed of sad gloomy . people warned me not to get to close but i couldn't help myselfi loved them so much people told me that cause they knew these would happen i di dnot hink that i would be able to part with them but i had to.